As I’ve mentioned before, I am on meds. They are a miracle!
The type of medication I take is not really an anti-depressant, but is classified as a mood stabilizer. That means it is supposed to lessen the punch of your ups and downs, but it does not completely eradicate them. (It’s kind of like being on the kiddy roller coaster instead of the mind-f*cking one.)
I think, lately, my mood has been a bit off. In general, I am doing well, but still feel extremely exhausted. Sometimes I sleep all weekend. (I did that this weekend.)
But sometimes, I think I am exhausted because of all of the good psychological changes I am going through. In the last six months, I have:
- Decided to radically simplify and sell my house
- Decided to move into an RV (after years of wanting to do so…)
- Decided to drive to the Arctic
- Started sharing lots of really private stuff on my blog
- Started interacting frequently with new friends on my blog
- Stopped drinking
- Started going to AA
- Started socializing with other women (in AA)
- Started calling other women (again, in AA)
- Significantly decreased my shopping over the last year, despite one slip.
So, the main point is that I feel self conscious about how often I want to write, “I’m tired!” on my blog, but need to remember that these kinds of changes are a very big deal for me!
So, I’m tired! (But I feel really good!)
Take care,
Jennifer
p.s. Thanks for all the comments! Many are still getting stuck in the spam folder. I don’t know why as it is always someone different. Also, I’ve really loved hearing from new people (some on older posts). You have no idea how much it means to me to hear from you! I always wonder about the people who are quiet. ; )
I wonder if this would work with my Scion.
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Countup: 50 days of sobriety!
Countdown: 108 days until I move into my RV!
Auto mechanics classes start next Tuesday!
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It takes a lot of energy and effort to do what you are doing – you have every right to be tired from it.
Heck, makes me tired sometimes.
But you are doing it for your health and well being [YAY AA & sobreity and new friends and the house is ready to sell, etc] So sit back, take a deep breath and relax when you feel tired.
Just think of how free you are going to be when you are on the road.
You are going to live what you have been thinking of for a long time…
Take care and just remember to breath. Wonderful things are happening for you.
Life in general is exhausting! Then throw a bunch of twists and turns into it and it gets that much more tiring. Believe it or not, this is a positive thing! You are going through many life altering changes right now. As exhausting as it may be, enjoy it! Everything you are accomplishing is going to be (and already has) a positive impact on your *new* life. You should be extremely proud of yourself! So sleeping in a few days (or all weekend) is just one of your many rewards to yourself. You’ve earned it. Now get rested up because your auto mechanics class start next Tuesday! You will be bombarded with loads of information. Be sure to take notes!
*Big* hugs to your 50 days of sobriety! Just that in itself is exhausting. Congratulations!
Change is hard, and yet it is rewarding down the road. When a person makes a lot of changes, it can be and IS exhausting. I too have made a lot of changes this past year. My life has changed these past 4 years of ups and total downs where I want to sleep to hide. Hybernating is ok for awhile. Glad you are sharing your life with others. This is a huge step. I enjoy reading your blog. I agree with Angie, writing down your goals is helpful. Writing this blog should be a great healer too. I shall follow you. Take care…
Heck Jennifer, just reading your blog maked me tired……i was recently diagnosed with a good case of sleep apnea…it’s very common…..maybe you have a touch as well….but your activities in the past (and thinking of the future) are probaably the reason for your sleepeness….so what??
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